as i sat in my seat soaring across the pacific, watching a very bad movie with kate hudson and matthew mcconaughey, all i could feel was an overwhelming sense of panic.
what. was. i. doing?
fleeing, apparently, in strongest sense of the word. reflecting back on my decision making process, i am not entirely sure what gave me the ridiculous idea in the first place. but it stuck.
however, i did not arbitrarily point my finger at a world map and pick taiwan. i have roots here, with an impressively large extended family. i became tefl certified (teaching english as a foreign language) while playing housewife in boston, and am reasonably fluent in mandarin.
is this decision forever? no, not forever. very little in life is ever forever, and all i know is this is for right now. the truth is, i am buying time, and at the moment, i am feeling so, so much better.
love, fif
it's an adventure!
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